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| so yeah, a lot has been going on lately. it has been a crazy couple of weeks. fortunately, it's mainly been crazy in the good way. so onto the update ness. as you all know i have been in and out of school for awhile now. every time people talk to me i seem to have a different plan of action. as of lately i have been interviewing with the American Academy of Art (an art college downtown) and getting things for my GED ready. on that note, 3 weeks ago i took my GED class placement test at Harold Washington College. i got the results back a little less then a week later and i scored as 12th grade 9th month for reading and 10th grade 9th month for Math. i was soooo happy because i was having the crappiest day beforehand and this really opened up a lot of oppurtunities for me. one of those oppurtunities i shortly found out would be taking this Ability to Benefit Test. the Ability to Benefit Test is a test that will admit me into a city college without my GED or HS diploma. this way i can take college classes while preparing for my GED test. so, as my mom knows the President of HWC, i talked it over with him and a counselor and decided to take this test. so took it yesterday and .... (wait for it) .... i got a perfect score (99%) in Reading, an 88% in Writing, and an 83% in Math. so guess what that means? I'M GOING TO COLLEGE IN THE WINTER!!!!!!!!!! oh shiiiit. phew, happy. :) so, to sum it all up, i'm at the moment soon to be a college student and attending ged classes that will be complete in 8 weeks. oh shit, mothafuckas.
comment, for i really do love you guys and know SOMEONE must read this. | | |
| Just a few more minutes so I can climb between your minds thighs and send you a bit of cognitive pleasure.
Just a few more words so I can rhetorically send signals up and down your spine convincing you that I’m the one.
The one that’ll make you tremble and convulse under the covers as I give you my one of a kind, exclusive treatment.
And the other that will make you feel like you’re king of the world.
But, who am I kidding?
One of a kind?
Exclusive?!
I give this to anyone who will give me the time of day.
And show me that tiny bit of affection to make me fly off the handle, both sexually and mentally.
Physically and cerebrally.
And it sure does rule me.
I ignore all my first impressions for second hand information I receive from the mind of the devil. | | |
| On my front porch i look down and try desperately to count the number of goosebumps.
These strange formations taking up all of my body.
Turning my skin into something that's inhuman, animal like.
How appropriate to feel physically what i am mentally.
An animalistic, god forskaken, peice of crap.
You made me feel this way.
You took the soul out of me and replaced it with a computer chip filled object.
How could i have known that when you reached to go inside of me that I would feel more empty then full?
He was right, it'll will leave you feeling used, broken, and
Shook up, thrown down, and busted
My soul, my heart, my body, scattered into a thousand peices.
As smoke rises in the air, now out of my lungs.
Into the atmosphere, where it will rest.
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| god to the damn. i have not updated this shiz in a minute. hahahahahaha. let's speak ghett-o speak.
*says sumthin so ghett-o that no one can understand it*
well, i've missed u guys, a lot. i miss whitney. and people. and all that other stuff. I MISS U DIA. AND U ADRIAN. AND U TOO JOSE. and u too Sherry, if u do read this. oh and Kelly, can't forget Kelly. but yeah, a lot has been going on. things are changing, people are growing, life is starting to form. isn't it weird? i mean we're all like... growing up. aaah, life. so what has been going on lately? let's dwell on it.
i've been building up a portfolio for an art college. can't tell too many people what i wanna do though, it's a secret. all mines, and like 3 other people... lol. my 18th birfday is coming up soon. i'm gunna use the money i get to get my monroe peirced and pay for a digital photography class. for the first time in a lot of years i feel alive. thanks, Johnny. yeah, he's not gunna read this but the ass really helped me. gawd, feeling what i do now, if only i could go back. if only i could do things over again... but regrets aren't worth having. u gotta take life and roll with it, right? roll with the punches, baby. roll with it.
what else? my dad just realized tonight that i'm prolly gunna get my highschool diploma equivalency (ged) before my sis gets her actual diploma. it's cool cuz he was all like, surprised. next year College, babies. can't wait! need to apply. aaaarrrggghhhh. need to build my shit up. art schools, whoot! ari's spending the night over here. she spent last night, too. good times. gotta love sleepin in the same bed as my sister. mmmm incest.
more news, u say? well, i gots a new boyfriend. or biff, if u will. he's a sweetie. mmmm boys. one day i shall meet his parents and show them how aweshome i am... i hope they don't make me cry... lol. though, i'm serious. fuckin ex marine crazy shit goin on. and jus plain crazy bitch. oh my gawd u guys would not beleive what i have been through with these people. jesus effin christ. but he's a jew boy, so that automatically screams worth it. mmmmm jews.
i think i shall ramble on some more... i hung with olivia today. and partially ari. me and oli had 2 cups of coffee. i swear i am hyped up as all hell on that shiit. so that's why this entry is soo long... i'm sure y'all we're wondering. but yeah i also bought a new shirt with my babysitting money. its pink and skull like. let's write random phrases now (they're all from songs so guess em)!
- chulo, thinkin we loco, c'mon homie, we major!
- so dream a good one tonight, i'll listen to the bad ones when they come.
- mama, tells me i shouldn't bother.
- but i could not recall a more perfect fall.
- and from ur lips she drew the...
- a hip hop legend, i think i died in an accident cuz this must be heaven.
- and when i pass the bottle back to Pete on the overpass tonight i bet we'll laugh.
- good girls gotta get down with the gangstas.
- the best part of what has happened was the part i must have missed
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| Eve took the first bite of that apple because she wanted more.
More than the beautiful scenery around her,
More than the minimal amount of worries,
More than the world, which she already had.
And if God had not came down and struck her out of Eden in all His fury,
She probably wouldn’t have stopped eating.
Eating apple,
After apple,
After sinful apple
Until she was more than full.
Eve was a glutton.
Much like Eve I want more.
More than the wonderful people surrounding me,
More than what was meant to be a happy place that I was born into,
More than what is legal, for I don’t always abide by the rules.
And until God comes down and strikes me out of my Eden,
I will go about the day in my routine.
Smoking my cigarettes down to the filter
And then lighting up another one.
Drinking,
Smoking,
And eating my way down to the very pits of hell.
For like Eve, I am a glutton.
Salvation is not in store for me.
So, as this is my deadly sin,
Hell, here I come.
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